If I fall apart...

Every cell of my body 

asks me

What if I fall apart 

in solitude, in dark?

Will it make a sound? 

And if it does

will it be loud and harsh? 

Just like a putrefied heart.

Will it drag them,

into affliction?

Will it cause a hurting heart?

Will it portray some melanchonic reflection?

Or will that sound 

be a tender strangulation 

which will be left out,

yet again

behind the words like,

"Oh, I am not in vain"

-A.S