The Song That Screams A Name...

There is a song I know, 

that screams a name.

The name is treacherous 

And I'm to blame. 

It makes

The moon drunk,

The stars intoxicated. 

and beneath the sins of the sun, 

every note of that song 

causes affliction.

"will I-

 will it,

ever sound the way

it is meant to sound, 

again?" 

I planted it, 

as a flower in my head. 

Eventually, it caused a misfit.

And now, I am a victim 

of alexithymia   

I named the song

as my 'petrichor partner' 

*laughs to herself*

but the screams are so loud, 

that even the raindrops appear blur. 

Yesterday, 

every lyric meant a lot.

Today, 

I'll just be embracing 

the boketto. 

It knocks me down.

this moment does count. 

for, my reveries of the winter dance

seem to depart. 

If this paranoia 

is curable

I'd still let its knife,

stab me. 

I've been known 

to do this.

Far too often. 

Lost in translation

of the lyrics. 

I still hear the screams. 

If only, I had the power

to redo my playlist.

-A.S